It’s been a tough season for about the past six months in my circle of family and friends. We’ve been dealing with many losses. Some of which came right out of left field with little warning or time to prepare. Loss happens that way, sometimes. Others, we knew to expect, but that didn’t make them hurt any less.
So I enter into this Advent with a weight of grief upon me. I cry easily. I’m not sure how much decorating I’ll get to (part of this is grief, part of it is the new puppy in my household, and a desire not to give her easy targets for destruction). I haven’t done some of my normal Advent rituals, and I’m not sure if I will.
I’ve always made an effort to engage in the celebration of this season. It’s my favourite time of the church year, Advent and Christmas Eve sermons have always been the easiest ones to write. The music is glorious, and I seem to discover new, wonderful pieces every year. I choose to enter into the hope, peace, joy and love, each year.
This year, though…0n the one hand, I long for the ‘magic’ of Christmas (which, as a woman of faith, isn’t magic at all, but a soul-deep connection with God who gives the very best gift of all – Jesus). On the other hand, I find myself struggling to connect with the joy that once came to me so easily.
I am not alone in this. The holidays are a hard time for many.
So I guess what’s on my mind and my heart today, as I begin to blog through this season, are some questions: how do we celebrate when it doesn’t come easy? How do we lead when we feel a little lost ourselves? Where is God when our hearts are heavy and life feels like a mess?
And, of course, the answer comes from what is at the centre of this season – God’s coming among us in the Christ child. In the midst of political upheaval (the Roman census), poverty (Mary and Joseph were not even middle class, if middle class were a thing in ancient Israel), shame (an unmarried pregnancy, rumours about what THAT meant) and danger (King Herod’s jealousy over the prophecies that declared this child would be King), God comes in the humblest human form – a new born baby.
God steps into our mess, not as one who is immediately capable to take it all on and clean it all up. But as one of us – in our weakness and frailty, arriving with nothing, needing others just to survive. God becomes one of us, so that we know we are not alone. So that we can’t say to God, “You don’t know what it’s like.” God chooses to humble himself, for us.
And so, whatever you might be struggling with this season, I hope you can find some comfort in the thought that God knows exactly what it’s like. I hope you can find some rest in the thought that God isn’t put off by our messy lives. I hope you can celebrate (even if it’s a quieter celebration than normal) a season that reminds us how very much FOR US God is.
(And if life is glorious for you right now – if everything is going beautifully, may you be full of gratitude and find a way to bless others who might be struggling.)